As I have been processing these thoughts I am about to share, I have realized that I am possibly running the risk of being cliché, maybe I am. So excuse another person who is trying to bring more meaning back to Christmas, and hear it from a heart that is truly overflowing with gratitude for what my Savior has done in my life.
Tonight as I sat as the opening chords rang out in our Christmas Eve service, I was moved much beyond the expected, my heart suddenly identified with the words I was singing, and gratitude filled my soul. This year, 2010, has been filled with every emotion possible. From heart breaking family things, to breaking my leg, to personal struggles, to amazing victories and redemption beyond description, to say this year has been full is an understatement**.
There was a day, it is clear like it was yesterday in my mind, that I sat in my car with Phil by my side and truly felt hopeless. I have never experienced anything like this. A despair, a deep pain, hopelessness. I remember saying and feeling that I just wanted to feel like myself again, that I wanted to run away from it all. But where do you run to when you feel like everything is crumbling around you? Where do you turn when you feel like even God has betrayed you?
As the questions rang through my being I started to find something. Something unexpected. Something so divine, so saving, there is no denying. I thought I was going to find out why God had allowed these things to happen, but I found something greater. I found a Savior willing to take me as I am, even doubting His very being, and show me Himself. A savior who is so great, so mighty, so life saving, it blew what I thought was faith right out of the water. It has changed me to my core.
This Christmas, it is not just about giving gifts or enjoying more time off of work. Its about something so much greater than that. A Savior come to earth to save me, to save us from this mess we are in, from our hopelessness. This year I am celebrating, I am celebrating this life changing grace that has been showered upon me this year. May I never forget what a sweet Savior I have, what redeeming life he has given me.
This year like the wise men who traveled so far to worship, I want to do that same. To worship my God for what he has done in my life, for who He is, for He is Christ and he has come.
I am sure we have all heard this song a million times, but I challenge you, listen to the words. Don’t let the familiar tune and lyrics get away, grasp what they mean, celebrate with me this new born King. Come with me, come and adore. Imagine as the writer is spilling forth these lyrics, begging us to come with him, to come and see Bethlehem first hand, the baby sent to save us, then SING! Sing all who know him, sing all who have experience His love and kindness, Angels, YOU join in too! Come, behold him, worship, oh come! Glory to God, Glory in the highest, with all that is in me, Glory to the one who saves.
Oh Come let us Adore Him, Oh COME let us Adore HIM, Oh Come let us Adore Him, Christ the LORD!
These are not tears I cry in pain or in sorrow, but in joy for the work the King has done in me, for He has brought joy to the sorrow, laughter to the pain, sense out of the madness, peace to chaos, rest to the restless. So sing, sing to the King for what He has done, for coming to this broken world and bringing the solution. He is Chirst the LORD.
May this Christmas be filled with a new meaning, with a Christ who is more real than ever before. And if you do not know this Christ yet, discover Him, He is waiting to show you these things.
**I know that there is many gaps in my story this year, I have eluded to many things happening that have been extremely hard this year. I have wanted to share details, there has just not been the right time and because it is not just my story to tell, I desire to respect others that are involved. For those of you who know what has gone on, I can not thank you enough for the support you have shown me and my family. For those of you who do not know, please know I am open and willing to share.
**I know that there is many gaps in my story this year, I have eluded to many things happening that have been extremely hard this year. I have wanted to share details, there has just not been the right time and because it is not just my story to tell, I desire to respect others that are involved. For those of you who know what has gone on, I can not thank you enough for the support you have shown me and my family. For those of you who do not know, please know I am open and willing to share.






